it is hard to diagnose
we carry it around
having trouble with love
we don’t know why
we think it is the other person
some of us think we are better than the other
some of us, we think we are worse
we forget how to treat the other
expecting more, receiving less
giving more, getting less
more broken open
more empty
less ourselves
lost
and there
hiding in the depths
undetected
–the wound–
it came as a reward maybe
or maybe we took it as a compliment
perhaps we were finally accepted
it may have been our first accomplishment,
our first experiment,
our first unnecessary atonement for hating ourselves too much…
the prognosis
it is not good
how can a wound be healed
when a person doesn’t even know a wound exists
fading away
falling away
forsaking self to embrace the crime of spirit annihilation
unloved?
could the first one who stopped loving your soul be you?
it may not have been
struck in the heart
a flesh and spirit penetration
who placed in you this wound?
it is not always you
it is not always them
still the wound exists
know that it can be removed
For we use the word ‘evil’ in two senses: first, when we say that someone has done evil; and second, when we say that someone has suffered evil…It is unjust action, not unjust suffering, that constitutes sin…Augustine, On Free Choice of the Will
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This line really moves me: “could the first one who stopped loving your soul be you?” It is exquisite and provocative to the point of discomfort. If we deny that our own creation is worthy of “love,” what are we left with? We must then deny His perfection and that leads to all kinds of chaos.
That’s a nice reading…It was nice to hear what you drew out of the lines…I appreciate you letting me know how it affects you because I never really know how it will after I slap it up on the post…Thank you and God bless:)
I don’t think you “slap” anything up there. I hope you are keeping up with your “pressures” well and peacefully.
My last Stephen Ministry training class is on Sat., but the boys still have a lot of end of school year events…Their dad is also coming at the end of May. He has not been around for two and a half years, so I am…I don’t know about it… Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts…
I understand. I will pray.
I need to reflect on this as it is beautiful! Unjust suffering is not a sin but acts is what Augustine was saying? Because we get to process our suffering in how we will respond – evil for evil, good in face of evil?
I am glad you liked it and that it was thought provoking. There is suffering, without a doubt, but sometimes we think we are the cause when we are not OR we think everyone else is the cause when we are. Of course this just pertains to sinful actions that cause suffering. God bless…Have a wonderful day…
Your in my prayers God Bless. The Blessed Mother was a single mother to. She is wonderful. So is her Son whom I have a great deal of love for.
I appreciate the prayers. Mary is awesome, and so is her Son, I totally agree. God bless, sister…